when i was 30 pounds overweight – i said to myself if only i was a thin person. i think i would be more popular and i’d be happier
when i came out to work – i said i’d be happy if i earn x amount a month.
then the day came i lost 30 pounds and earned x amount a month but did it make me happier or more popular. not really i must say.
have you ever felt as though you are always trying to fast forward your life ? i guess i have been that for a while now.
i was talking to my sister in law and she was wearing an oregon t-shirt. i asked her when did she go to oregon and she said that her brother in law had driven her there from san jose.
she did not enjoy oregon because she thought for such a long drive – oregon just didn’t have many attractions. i went home and looked at the map. i think she missed out the point. i think her brother in law wanted her to see the various attractions along the way.. enjoy the road trip because in hong kong, it’s too damn small for one.
i think we are missing the point of living. we have our eyes planted so far into the future we kinda have forgotten to smell the breeze of today, enjoy the little rustles of the leaves and just enjoy the people you have around you right now. i think about the important people i have shared my life with at one point or another. i have missed some of them but you know, we can’t go back and ask for more.
what is the destination? it is the inescapable death.
i once asked a pretty open minded priest. what if there was no heaven or hell? then where do you go. he said where do you think you would go. i said nowhere, whatever’s left of me would turn into dust or the earth.
just because as humans we are given a very strong tool – the mind which other living creatures do not have, we place far too much importance and emphasis on our existence but if we magnify our existence along with everything else in the universe. we are just a very tiny grain.
i ain’t going to fast forward my life anymore and you know what, looking back. every time i try to plan my life, it has turned out so different from my plan. i am just going to sit back, enjoy the time i have, enjoy my family and friends.